Feeling Down..

Have you ever felt that you were just a step away from your dream, but in a split second it was snatched away? I am feeling exactly that way.

Maybe I am being too hard on myself...having high expectations towards myself. When I do not get what I intend to have, I am upset, disappointed and feel useless. Sigh..what am I supposed to do? Been thinking all the possibilities, all the why-s on why I did not get it. My brain is tired, I am feeling negative. Been bugging my boyfriend about it and i guess he's bored of my worries. Sorry da.

Well, I guess shit happens. I just have to get over it. Don't whine yeexinhoong. It will not help. Get a life!

I am Starting a Blog!

Yup...let’s see how long will I actually maintain this blog thing. Everytime when I am bored and have ample of time, I’ll start writing blogs. When I get busy with some other stuffs, I’ll totally forget about it. A very good example will be my Friendster blog. Hehehe..

Am currently unemployed. Jobless while waiting for my graduation which will be in August. Heard that the posting interview will be early June and posting should be done early September. Thus, I have at least, say 4 months plus to work. The problem is I am actually being lazy to find a job that will hire me for 4 months. I really wished I could just continue teaching in the school. Sigh..

Actually, I am interested in doing volunteering work. The first thing that came into my mind was SPCA. SPCA in Ipoh is located quite far from my place. But since I LOVE animals so much, I don’t really mind the distance. I talked to my parents about it and they were AGAINST me being a SPCA volunteer. :( To them, volunteer work should be done when I am able to earn money, sustain myself and bla bla bla. My mom went on and on about why don’t I volunteer myself to help do housework instead of helping in the animal shelter?! Sigh...the difference is that I have passion for animals and NOT housework. Well, I just had to forget about being a volunteer since I am still currently depending on my parents to feed me. It’s not like I am earning my own money. Even to go to SPCA I’ll have to drive my dad’s car. He will have to pump petrol for me, give me money for lunch etc. So I guess I really have to find a job.

What job?! I had my fair share of experience being in the food industry - being a waitress in Pizza Hut. Second working experience will be working in a clinic - learning about how one medicine has multiple functions to it. Learned a lot from both working experiences. Now, what should I try next? Clerk? Receptionist in a hotel? Or should I be a child tutor? I have no idea. Got to see what pays the highest and work the least! Hahaha....

Guess I will have to go job-hunting tomorrow! Wish me luck!